I have been known to be a planner by the people in my life. In the past, asking me where my career was headed, or the grand plans I had to buy a car or a home would have yielded immediate answers, “In five years, I will be at level X in my career”, “By the end of this year I will have saved up to buy a new car.” This is not me anymore.
God came and interrupted my life.
I realize that sounds overly spiritual coming from a normal person just trying to make their way in this life, but this is exactly what is happening to me in this moment. I made a decision a few weeks ago to start a fast, and now at day 17 of 21, it is quite clear to me that my life, as I had planned it is about to change.
I had all these grand plans of what my life would become, and how I would achieve these plans, but God has made it clear that things will not unfold as I had thought. I am learning to trust God through the blindness, even when I cannot see the end. Even when I cannot see beyond a step in front of me. He is calling me to be still before him in these troubled times.
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth”.Psalm 46:10
I may not even hold the job I now have at the end of the year, and that’s okay. I may not even be relying on the skills and expertise that I have developed over my career this time next year, and that’s okay. He has me in his hands, and he will work it out, for his glory.
“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still”Exodus 14:14
And so in this season of blindness, where I cannot see what comes next, I choose to trust Him. He who formed me in my mothers womb, and has a grand plan for my life and this earth will bring it to fruition. I choose to trust, and to stand in the gap for anyone who is like me. Anyone who cannot see what comes next. Anyone whose life has been turned upside down by COVID 19 and all the challenges that it has brought. I will be here praying for you in this season of blindness, and God will cross us over to the other side.